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What Will I Become?
What Will I Become? relays the stories of trans boys within a national landscape where suicide remains tragically prevalent.
- Length
- 90 minutes
- Funding Initiative
- Open Call
Co-Director, Producer
Lexie Bean
Lexie Bean is a multimedia artist focused on bodies, homes, cyclical violence, and queerness. They are a Jerome Hill Fellow, RAINN National Leadership Council Member, Lambda Literary Finalist, and award-winning Penguin Random House author. What Will I Become? is their debut feature film and is inspired by their lived experience.
Co-Director, Producer
Logan Rozos
Logan Rozos is a New York-based actor and director. His acting credits include the Peabody Award-nominated series David Makes Man. He was an honoree in Teen Vogue’s 20 Under 20 Queer Artists and Activists To Watch. What Will I Become? is his debut feature, and he represented the film in Firelight Media’s Doc Lab Fellowship (2022-2024 cohort).
Producer
Drew Dickler
Drew Dickler is a documentary filmmaker and co-founder of Deep Dive Films based in Brooklyn, New York. Spanning features, shorts, and commercials, much of Drew's work explores themes of identity and resilience. Her first feature doc, Fireboys, is streaming on Max and was selected for the American Film Showcase.
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The Film
According to the American Academy of Pediatrics, more than 50% of transgender boys have attempted suicide. In What Will I Become?, directors Lexie Bean and Logan Rozos explore the vulnerability of their transmasculine community. They delve into their own personal experiences, intertwining the stories of two young trans men who died by suicide.
Homecoming king Blake Brockington and soft-spoken Kyler Prescott were poets, musicians, and community advocates. The film traces their joys and challenges, their tragic deaths and resulting media attention, and the larger aftermath within their communities. Kyler’s story is told by his close-knit family in San Diego, while a second portrait combines interviews with Blake and his vast network of found family in the Carolinas.
The film also uplifts resources that affirm trans boys and the LGBTQIA2S+ community. The T-Man hiking group provides space for elder trans men to convene in nature; Darb Garb offers gender-affirming accessories; and Trans Lifeline is a peer support call line. These outlets provide an understanding of suicide-prevention practices, which serve as a counterpoint to traditional spaces, such as hospitals and schools, where transphobic incidents and alienation might prevail.
What Will I Become? considers the lives of these individuals, the environments that provide care, and spaces that lend to ostracization—asking why the transmasculine community is particularly vulnerable to living briefly and dying quietly.
